The Ranch....

I have had a love hate relationship with the Ranch for about 13 years now. I am pleased to say that it has become more of a love the last few years. It took a long time beacause I had to figure out who I was, and not react to other peoples actions. This last trip was a unique one. My mom and her husband Bill came along. It was alot of fun sharing something that speacial with MY family. It made it feel more like home to me. My mom loved the "Little house" she said it reminded her of home. I was glad she could be there. Ryan And Kim worked on the "White Palaces" roof. ( that is Kim And Machelle"s house on the hill). It is beautiful. I am so happy for Kim, to see his life long dream come to fruition. He deserves it, I have never known anyone to work so hard for a goal. My kids are in their element there, i feel so guilty taking them home to the "City". My dogs got to go this trip, and they got to be the dogs they were meant to be. Simple pleasures, bring absolute joy.
While i was there i had an experience that some would think was really common, but it was a first-and meant the world to me. I needed to give my kids a bath. so i had to rip them away from the camp fire. While I was bathing them, my mom came in and took joshie from me. He was so tired that he was just crazy. She took him from me and got his jammies on and got him in bed. Now like I said I am sure that this is common for many people, but it was the first time that I felt taken care of. I am on my own alot- emotionally. I will never forget that gesture of just being there for me, that my mom gave to me. I felt like a part of a real family- not a pretentious facade.
Ryan and the dogs are still there, and we miss them. I am begining to feel the pressure of having a fouth babe, and not having anywhere to put him. Usuallyby this time i have the nursery set up. However i do feel like I am being blessed with incredible patience. I haven't been bithchy yet!

FM100

Well it has been well over a year since my last post... I guess i have been a bit busy. So i was driving down the street today, enjoying the rainy weather. Joshie was watching a movie. As i was driving i realized that i was having a very pleasant time. Just being by myself, then i caught myself singing along with,We Belong To The Night, By Pat Benetar. I also realized that i had been happily singing along with songs for the past 45 minutes... On FM 100!!!!! Seriously... Am i that old? My mom doesn't even listen to FM100. Wow, that was quite the wake up call that i need to get a life.
So why does it have to be so hard to get my children to eat??? Tessa and Kes have been "eating" for the last hour. I just busted Tessa feeding the dog. Life as a mother has its ups and downs. I sure am happy for both.